The Random Bibliophile

by Renee Alexis

Renee Alexis
20-something Filipina, an introvert who loves young adult fiction, brush pens, Taylor Swift, and BTS. Coffee runs in my bloodstream.


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Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you

Hold on to the memories by Renee Alexis

It's been a while since I spent a lot of time scrolling through Facebook. I don't remember when exactly I stopped frequenting the site but tonight of all nights, I found myself clicking through tagged photos and friend's profiles, and stumbling through memories long forgotten. It's funny how time went by unnoticed. What seemed like the time of our lives at the time is now just a distant, fading memory that nothing but photos could prove that those things took place.

I have a bazillion photos on Facebook. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating, but still, I have a lot. And looking at these beautiful memories at 3 AM makes me feel nostalgic. Am I pathetic if sometimes I wish I could go to the past and relive those memories? I promise I won't change a single thing. I'll just watch on the sideline while they play through. Life is fleeting and I don't know how much longer I'm allowed to stay here. And so looking through old photos and walking through memory lane are some of the things I do to reflect on how my life has been lived.

As I'm writing this post at three in the morning while listening to Moira's rendition of Safe, I couldn't help but feel sad and happy at the same time.  Seeing photos of me with people I'm not in speaking terms with anymore gives me bittersweet feelings I couldn't scrape off my tongue. Nothing is truly permanent. These photos are proof enough. Through it all, I'm still happy because I know that at those certain times, my past self was happy.

Will this thing go on? I mean, in the future, will I go through the same thing I'm going through right now? Will I be looking at photos I took today five years from now, reminiscing about how things were and wondering how the people in the photos I'm with are doing? I think only time will tell. But then again, I only have a handful of friends now, so I hope I could keep them all.

Everything changes. Things may stay the same for a while but eventually, there will be inevitable changes. That's just how life goes, and so note to self, be prepared to bend and break. You have to be able to adjust and adapt no matter where you are in life, it's the only way to live. xx



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