The Random Bibliophile

by Renee Alexis

Renee Alexis
20-something Filipina, an introvert who loves young adult fiction, brush pens, Taylor Swift, and BTS. Coffee runs in my bloodstream.


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A Dollop of Existential Dread

It's 10 in the morning and as I was sipping my first cup of coffee for the day, a ping sounded from my charging phone. A friend shared a Youtube video and as I didn't have plans to watch it yet, my curiosity won and I found myself clicking the video and listening to what both hosts were speaking about.

Yesterday, Twitter was abuzz from all the NFT talks because from what I've heard, Hybe is venturing to make BTS photocards into NFTs. Having dabbled a little bit in cryptocurrency myself, I can't still quite grasp the whole concept of the matter. I just don't think I have enough brain cells to comprehend all the complicated tech stuff behind this subject no matter how many articles I read. And so the video sent to me discussed it and it kinda gave me more knowledge about the matter. 

What boggled my mind is that there are still a lot of things unknown to me in this world. I've been breathing for 27 years yet the things I know in my mind are quite insufficient. It made me feel stupid to not know that much. It made me think that I've been living insignificantly. For all the important things currently happening in the world, I am just sitting at home facing my 14-inch laptop screen, lazing about on my different social media platforms, reading inconsequential things, and just really getting by every day. While a lot of people are doing helpful things that contribute to the betterment of our world, it sunk into me that what I'm doing is of no importance.

I am but a speck of dust. Irrelevant. Insignificant. Unimportant. Nonessential. 

someone ordered a dollop of existential dread so early in the morning


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